Thankfulness on poop filled days

Some days it feels like every diaper I change has poop (just got real in here).  One after the other.  And it seems like those days fall on days when nothing seems to be going my way.  I chipped a tooth last night and that stresses me out incredibly, things are still inconsistent with Joe's job, some bills are still behind, the check engine light is still on in the car.  The list cold go on and on if I let it.  It would be really easy to let it.  Really easy, I just thought of three more things I could add.  But that's not what I should, or want, to focus on.  If I focus on what's bad or not going my way, my heart turns toward that, toward unthankfulness.  Closer to bitterness and a victim mentality.  I can't focus on the lack.  It's just a downward spiral that drags me and my family down.  My family is brought down because I control the spiritual atmosphere of the house.  I control it.  Not the circumstances.

So, instead of worrying and stressing I take 10 minutes and actually have quiet time with some bible reading.  I take the extra time to journal my thoughts on the passage I just read.  I enjoy my cup of coffee.  I relish in the sight of my boys loving and wrestling each other.  I'm thankful for the morning talks I get with my mom. I look forward to ladies night tonight at our new church that I love!

And within that short time my heart has turned back to where I want it.  It's not that I'm ignoring that first list, but I'm now in a mindset that I cant deal with it.  One at a time because I can't take on everything at once.  Sometimes it's easy to focus on the good stuff, sometimes it's a fight.  But it is always worth it.

Especially since there is a good chance that next diaper I change is going to have poop in it. :)